Girlfriend…Whats that?
Girls was always an issue with me because I never had the confidence in asking girls out
I never saw myself as handsome or good-looking
So I never had the guts to do anything that involved rejection
Spin the bottle
7 minutes in heaven
My first kiss? What was that..
My kisses usually involved a girl with I was half was intoxicated
Because at least by that point if I were rejected I could blame the XXX
It became a front and I just got use to being “the friend”
and by that time I didn’t have the experience that most guys did at that time
so i felt insecure about that
one insecurity lead to another and another and another…
Pete
Big Muscles Bigger Heart 
Hey Bro,
I have a similar story. When I was a teenager I had a lot of acne and my self-image and self-esteem was way down. So when the summer times came instead of going swimming with my friends I did mountain biking because I was so embarrassed of myself and didn’t want to show my body. Days went hotter and I still cycled 100 k a day it was crazy and I wasn’t happy. I was always thinking what are the others doing are they having fun are they all getting the girls while I was the crazy cyclist. It made my cry. During the evenings when we met I was the shy guy. I tried to hide by being funny and crazy and this got me the attention of one girl but I was a literally to scared to kiss her. So instead of making out we just talked and had fun and then I became the friend. And this sucked big time as I fall in love with the girl big time. So we went out and every fucking guy kissed her and so on but I stood there and couldn’t do anything. Went home alone and cried. This lasts I think for almost two years and I killed me inside. I was down almost all the time but didn’t showed it to anyone. I was the best friend who fell in love but everyone else got the girl. Man it killed me. I got my first girlfriend when I was 19 but I still had to suffer from those times and it took me a long time to get over it.
So to everyone out there. Believe in yourself and go out! Don’t be shy and take it and if you need help just contact us. I don’t know how you feel when you are a fat kid but I know how you feel when you don’t have any self-esteem when you feel ugly and be rejected.
November 3, 2010 at 7:59 am
boss
That was an amazing but heart breaking story man. I hear ya on the falling deeper in love with someone you can’t touch.
Its devistating to your ego, psyche, and overall self being.
To be honest I always felt like killing myself bc of those times.
I’m glad you are stronger enough to shed out that story bc I takes a a lot to put out how you feel.
Especially in the time of suffering.
Thanks so much for the great input and thanks for sharing.
I hope these post get at least to 1 kid.
and change that person.
You rock hommie.
when you coming to the states??!?!haahah
November 3, 2010 at 8:02 pm
These weren’t easy times! But in the end I got stronger. Especially because I felt I was the ugly teen and it hit me direct in the heart.
To be honest after one party where we went together and where I drove home alone I thought about driving into a wall. But this was a quick thought and this night changed me and I started to look forward and see things more clearly. So I started to keep distance from her. Man it helped a lot but it took some time to understand this and to do it.
Will come to the states in 2011…so be prepared! Haha
November 3, 2010 at 10:09 pm